Discussion: Extreme and prolonged physical and mental suffering often creates depression and impatience.

There were many times I wished for myself to die! The suffering of life without liver function is too brutal to describe in words. Your body rots while you are alive. The stench that wafted from me was like a dead carcass. I am not suicidal, but what saved me, in the end, is the hope of recovery and living in love with my Chinese girlfriend Alixin, who gave me love in the least expected place and time.